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Monday, March 02, 2009
about:
resignation
author:name here
i want to tell you a secret...ive been keeping it in for quite some time...preserving it...or rather avoiding the topic...Im such a person that would rather avoid a conflict...a diplomat, to put it in better terms...i hate being caught in the middle...it takes me along time to decide what to eat, what more who is the right one in the fight..come on..life isnt all clear black and white...unless its mr Micky there who was black but turned ghastly ghostly...pfft..not the point Su...okae2...so...the topic of "where do YOU want to go after graduation?" scares me..it has to at this kinda times where u leave the school world and try to face the REAL world...come to think of it..ive never thought of what im going to do after graduation coz to me, the path is kinda clear...You graduate...after you graduate, you work...to tell you the truth..ive been denying myself of something all these while...thought that i could resign to 'fate'.or mebbe i thought...so when i decided to go for it, the answer i got was more devastating...i told myself i should have forgot about it...im the type of person that never regrets what i do coz i know WHATEVER we do results im some other actions no matter how small it is...but the revelation was just to heartbreaking for me...trust me..thats all i can ask...my heart ache...my chest hurts...ive changed...from leading MY own life, to an avoider...ive taken a step back and let others move and arrange my life for me without me knowing it...i let them do it...i should shut up...give the world a little more peace..
Thursday, January 08, 2009
about:
companion
author:name here
omgomgomg
was just listening in to the O SHOW on Ria..
this lady, was just telling Fiza O thru an email bout her marriage problems..
Normal story..
Husband of 17 years had, is having a scandal..He doesnt want to leave his family neither does he have the will power to stop his forbidden relationship...She is just there for him..waiting for him to return to her...willing to do anyting n everything for him...but he then questions her."is this all sincere or a lie to cover up our problems?"
she's doing everything she can to get him back...
everything so she won't lose him..
but he questions her!
omgomgomg!
i dunno why im so worked up about it but..
whats different in this story is that...
from the email...
she IS really Sincere...
even as her husband told her of his scandal, even as he cried and pleaded, she was the one who comforted her husband...
when in her heart..
only God knows...
she is so strong..she thought it would just end like that but no...
her husband is not letting the other one go...
but he doesnt want to lose his family either..
confused fella i tell you...
omgomgomg..
the lady is so strong..
i pray that the lady, that all the ladies who are facing all the pain n suffering, be it in relationship, work, friends.. watever..stay strong ladies..all these will end one day and you will become a stronger person... (:
sorie guys if i offended you in any way..
the O Show has always been my companion...
esp now that im working and i dont see my friends as often anymore...
Thanks fiza(:
if only i can be as strong as the lady...
haisz...
only God noes...
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
about:
right?
author:name here
first entry after a veryveryveryvery long time n here it is...
i think im in love...
with Edward Cullen..
heh...aper aku nk buat?
naseb dier tk tinggal pat Singapore klau tk aku da stalk dier..
haha..
okae bye Edward...
say hi to Bella for me..
but ehk...
isnt he NON-EXISTENT?????
alahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
about:
i think he looks like him
author:name here
okae..actually didnt wanna blog but emotions overcame me...was listening to the sound clip fard sent me for Madu Kencana...im kinda sad..no...im really sad..to pull out from a play that i REALLY REALLY wanted to be part of...yar..though part aku senonet jer tapi there is no small or useless parts of a play...i really reaLLY REALLY wanted to be part of it..to learn from experience people..like Ayah Halim n Kak Lenny.but aper nk buat..kdg2 aku bingit...the reason why i had to let go of it,i feel..is because of politics...haisz..like wth sey...maner2 ader politics..sedih sey akuuuu...i mean i really wanna be part of it...on the selfish side..ive never missed out on SSP nyer shows..not a single one..klau tk perform ill try n watch it..but this one...ive got to forgo like totally..trainings pn da tk bleh turun lagik..coz of stupid reasons...haisz...bkn pasal tu jer...byk lagi bender aku kene lepas kn..bukan aku tk nk kejar balek bender2 yg aku lepaskn..aku tk boleh..haisz...u noe the feeling when kau nk buat bender n kau TAU kau boleh buat...TAPI ader jer org halang coz DORG ingat kau TK BOLEH buat...haiyooooo...aku emoshit seyyyyymebbe im homesickkkkyea..i AM homesick....boring sey lepas keje tros balek...bleh jadi giler..mcm tkder life....aper nk buat?alahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...aku rindu korg SUMER!!!!i mean SUMERRRRRRRRRRRRRmcm mane niiiiiii????n ouh...the food dere isnt bad..cumer i makan sumting yg aku tk suker smlm tros muntah2 seyyyyyynk demam pn ader....sedih knnnnn???weak arh Su...baru 1 hari keje da saket...lemah btol pompan niiiii!~-.-nk chocolate...i want all of you...n i want *you*n ouh!klau korg rajin turun tempat keje Su la..lunch samer2.WAH!!saper nk gie layan??!!!ouh!nk mkn salmon arhhhhh....saper nk blanjer CAVANA?hint2****hehe...Bila Rindu... Su terkenang korg... Bila Resah tengok gambar- gambar!~korg teka...ni lagu aper..saper guess btol n nyani sedap sekali menang hadiah!!~
Sunday, November 09, 2008
about:
WadaWadaBingBang
author:name here
niat di hati nk update...tapi suddenly mcm lost gitu..aper nk buat kn...ke-slenger-an terserlah..alaaaaahhhh...seriously...ouh2!~aku panjat pokok semalam...tinggi tau..lebih tinggi dari aku...tapi kn sume bender mcm lebih tinggi dari aku gitu?ahaha!n aku pegi Botanic Garden after a veeerrrrrryyyyy loooooooong time smlm...all thanks to SSP!hapie burfday sayangkus...SSP da 5 sey....next yr da K2..jage diri baek2 kae..jgn notti2... (:ouh and i ate pretzel after a loooong time tooo....been to TAPAC every week now..fun ting i tell u..reminds me of WAWAS...mcm ader WAWAS feeling...n aku rindu WAWAS...jom kiter pegi lagik...aku tk dpt join Darma dis yr..coz of internship...but tkper..korg haf fun utk aku kae dears...haf fun many2 kae... (:will be going KL insyaAllah...wif family..shopping...food...already planning to take mc..heh..*shrugs*ouh..n i sang in public for the first time too..seram..dun tink ill ever do it again...nerve wrecking...no confidence frankly speaking....ending school days unofficially in 2 wks..gonna miss school..n friends...n food...):n i miss you gurls...all of u...mcm ner ehk?nk kluar la...saper sudi jadi date Su?Su wants to sheesha toooo...so not fair..!cnt believe its this long (:random post...updated just because i was boredn this post is boring.......
Sunday, September 28, 2008
about:
in this month...
author:name here
i dunno how they do it...
but they always pulled it thru in the end...
to the gurls...
stay strong...
aku slalu doakan dorg...
lets all pray for their speedy recovery...
ive always been a scaredy cat...
aku takot nk face all these pain...
thats why when one of my sec. sch mate passed away a few years back,
aku tk pegi melawat...
sampai skrg aku kesal..
tapi aku takot..
takot aku breakdown at the sight of him...
Arwah has always been a hapie2 joy2 person..
then to receive the news that he ended his own life in a tragic way,
it made me sad...
really...
more of pain too...
coz i knew him too..
though tk rapat..
he was sumone who you cud depend on to make you laugh...
ive always wondered mcm ner his gurl cud pull it thru..
the gurl is one of my close frens in Sec. Sch...
n yep..
she did...
a strong gurl indeed..
and wat bout his close bros n sisters?
they were all crying and crying when they saw his body...
they even said Arwah was being his natural self even with his body wrapped in kaen kapan...
so handsome...
no sign of pain...
if i could recall la...
aku ingat lagi..
dorg kate,
"I'in pakai celak..."
what about his family?
to lose a child and a brother at such a young age?
you know..
sampai skrg..
klau i look thru frenster profiles,
i would always see his...
maseh blom delete...
heh...
in memory of him...
Shalehin...
that's his name...
korg...
jom kiter sedekah kn Al-Fateha untuk sesiapa yang telah pergi meninggalkn kiter...
and also to the guys yang sedang dirawat...
aku doakan a speedy recovery for you both..
for the gurls...
stay strong kae..
kiter sume doakan the guys
;)
i never want any of it to happen to you
really...
just the thought of it haunts me in my sleep...
just the thought of it makes me cry when im awake...
to any of you whom i care alot..
please jage diri korg baek2...
coz if anything happens, your friends and family will feel the pain too...
to the road users...
pls...
think of others..
thank you...
BERHATI-HATI DI JALAN RAYA
Su.Hai.Lah
Saturday, September 27, 2008
about:
tick tock tick tock
author:name here
First and foremost...HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG!!!!heh...okae2..so his burfday was yesterday technically since its oready past 12 midnight now...bt heyawal2 aku da wish dier tau...so yep2...HAPIE BURFDAY 18th MUHD. FAHMI HUSSAINI!!!*so yar..my spelling is inconsistent but who cares?*hope you like the gift..nothing much though but, heh...klau tk suker pn aper nk buat kn?heh...lurve you huns...so sorie cudnt spend the day wif you but hope you had a great time ;)n yep2...had a great time wif you on Friday ;)n yep2..cpt..u got only 2 days left then ill be 19!!!!!hehe;)so that day was nothing much...but having to spend time and to break fast with you was all i could ask for...hope you had a great time coz i did :)n kumpul la duit byk2 so you bleh beli the bike kae...hehe...so yep2..thank you and sayang you many2 :)talking bout burfday suprises..my darlings Azlin and Ain surprised me today!hahaksz.org tgh syok2 tido abeh Ain call berkali-kali...irritating!hahaksz..tk la..coz im the type of person klau tido tk suker angkat phone coz suare sexy mauts nyer kalahkan PCD!hahaksz!dream on sey SU!back to the story...at last aku angkat kol n Ain suroh turun coz APPARENTLY BOTH LIN AND AIN was AT MY VOID DECK!!!aku pn panic arh jarp..yer la..bru bgn tido n pikir jugak aper dorg buat bawah blk aku pkl 5 lebih kn?so aku rush down la sey...rupenyer dorg bli kan aku BURFDAY PRESENT!!!!KASUT BATA YANG AKU DA LAME AIM!!!!wargh korg!!n Secret Recipe's Choc. Indulgence!!!!!!!!wargh korg!!!!TOUCHED MAUTS AKU!!!aper tk nye...satu tinggal Jurong West n lagi satu tinggal SengKang!klau tinggal sebelah block tkper jugak...aww...coz lagipn dorg nyer 'plan' nk terawih pat Assyafaah...tapi mcm -.- jugak kn coz buat aper nk come all the way to Sembawang utk terawih..ruper-rupernyer...dorg stakat nk tau im free or not..hahaksz!ader2 jer...n Ain tanyer wat shoe i wanted at Bata coz 'she' wanted to buy the same one..ahasz!KORG TOO MUCH LA!!!aku nk nangis coz terharu pn tk bleh coz bru bgn tido n mcm slenger2 sikit gitu.*actually bkn bgn tido jer slenger..heh*THANK YOU SGT LA KORG!!!!!aku touched la sgt!coz u gurls didnt have to come all the way here...tkder pressie pn tkpe...hehehehe...alah...SYG KORG LA!aww...big hug gurls!you know...
this birthday..
i didnt expect much...coz nk raye and all..
what ive been waiting for was the Takbir...
n to telll you the truth..
i havent felt the true meaning of Syawal till last year...
where i teared hearing the takbir...
coz that was the point i started to know more of the world around me...
to get closer to peeps esp Ain and Azlin..
n to know Fahmi:)
so when this year came...
i was really looking forward to it...
the Ramadhan...
the Syawal...
this year..
like i said..
feeling Raye da lame aku rase..
coz aku dudok rumah buat kuih jer kan...
so sambil buat kuih dgr lagu2 raye..
hapie la kan..
summore im turning 19!
ONE MORE YEAR before im not a TEENAGER ANYMORE!!!
but yep2...
this year...
tk dpt buat iftar at my house mcm other years...
but heysz..
the 'celebrations' in advance kn..
mcm touching gitu...
awwness...
THANK YOU
SU is SO TOUCHED!!!
n SU SO LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!
muah!
n RAYER LAGI 3 HARI!!!!
suasana hari raya!
so looking forward to this year..
ps...
i feel kinda guilty coz i heard ramai mcm blom feel rayer...
but aku awal2 da feel rayer..
hehe...
kinda weird..
but u've got to feel it mansz klau buat kuih rayer wif your mom n the radio blasting wif Lagu Rayer..
n OUH!!!
anyam ketupat!!
FAVOURITE OI!!!!
but back hurts..hahaksz
SLAMAT HARI RAYER!!!!
SU NK CAKAP SORRY COZ SU TAU SU BYK BUAT SALAH..
MAAFKAN LA YER..
KLAU TK MAAFKAN TK BLEH MASOK SYURGA...
heh...
tk la..
;)