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Thursday, April 10, 2008
about:
Hate how much i love you...
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had a weird dream yesterday..
aper tk nyer...
it involves fighting...
as in physical fighting...
wif a fren...
(am i even sure dier member aku?heh)
a male fren...
but yar...
that guy cnt punch to save his life..
hahaksz!~
satu bender pn aku tk raser...
funny ting...
we were fighting at T21 yg dkt red bridge tu...
as in literally bergasak while the rest just looked on...
n another funny ting...
i was the one who caused him to be tergolek2 on the floor...
bkn dier...
hahasz...
aku yg challenge dier, dier plak yg down....
apada...
klakar2...
i tink the dream was supposed to spoof the nitewalk...
wif people running crazy to n fro the red bridge...
mcm fun fair bender tu...
hahaksz...
lari ulang alik lintang pukang terpekik terlolong!
nyahaa!!~
mebbe nk spoofkn si Azri tu yg mengigil non stop n patah balek pat spot Ewan n Falina pasal dier nampak bender yg bdk2 SMIT gantong...
nyahaa!!!
naseb baek tk terkencing bdk tu..
or...
heh...
i shall not think bout that shall i...
kekeke...
so yar...
this week has been a chilling out week...
yer la..
next week da start skola kn...
kire dis week lepak non-stop..
pat rumah laen...
its a major lepak week...
n comfort food week too!~
Thanks babes for tuesday!!~~
STOCKY,STUCKY...
but never sticky...
korg kiut arh...
nyahaa!~

all of us gurls shud haf a gurls ice cream eating marathon soon....
tempat tk romantic pn tkper...
pat cliff ker...
tk kesah..
asal kn ALL the GURLS are there....
n i mean it...
ALL ehk...
n GURLS tau...
no guys in drag ker aper ehk...
hurhur...
its an all gurls tingy...
whee!~
so yep2...
next week bukak skola...
i cnt wait...
coz...
OMG!~
im in yr 3!!~
tapi maseh mcm bdk sec 3...
zez..
tkper..
size dun matter..
my bite is still deadly...
huahuahua!
my timetable okae la ehk...
tk la slack sgt..
coz ader FYP per...
so its a bit airy i guess...
hahaksz...
so here it is...
Monday:
12 to 4
Tuesday:
9 to 11
2 to 5
Wednesday:
8 to 10
11 to 3
Friday:
9 to 12
3 to 4
so...
asal tkder thusday ehk?
pasal thursday NO SCH!~
nyaha!~
excited babe...
pasal first time in my sch life ive got no class on a day...
heheksz...
jakun sey...
but dun worie..
ill still be in sch...
aku tau korg akan rindu aku..
so ill still be cuming down for lunch ker..
n lagipon FYP is gonna take a lot of my time...
so ill stil be in sch a lot...
so dun try n run away frm me...
heheksz...
so at last...
the chapter of SPMLS FO CAMP 08/09 has since closed on Wednesday, 9th April 2008
lots of tings have been let out...
professionally ive said wat i wanted...
"Small details matter a lot. Its a HUGE deal"
personally, i guess ive done my part...
but yar..im not done yet...
letting it out to my brothers made tings easier...
sorie for breaking down like that guys...
esp u too Faan...
slalu dgn kau aku suker nah buat keje mcm ni...
heh...
but yar...
ive kept stuffs like dat for a long time...
really long...
n to talk to them really made it a lot lighter in my heart...
no more chunks of guilt...
actually not really..
there still is...
but...
at least i let it out to the guys...
gurls...
jgn kecik hati on y i didnt tell u..
but...
we already share that connection..
we already know how we are...
we already know how much we love each other...
i mean yar...
usually this kinda tings end wif a grp hug...
but tk kn nk pelok the guys...
ish..
BOLEH...
tapi ill get my balasan at akhirat kn..
hahaksz...
tk la...
talking to you guys oready made things easier...
thank you sumer...
esp to Faan,Yan,Din,Wan...
sorie la..
aku emo sikit hari tu...
SIKIT?!
fuh...
its been a long time since ive broken down like that in front of frens....
guess u guys are special huh...
alah gurlsz...
korg pon special..
in a special way...
huh?!
tk per la Su...
hahaksz...
really...
that day...
or rather nite lifted a lot from my chest...
talking...
apologising...
was a kinda impulse ting..
but yar...
"aku tk sengajer per!~"
as in really...
okae la..
later i buy for u again arh..
bwk masok camp tu...
Debriefs has owaes been my weakness...
or rather the end of sumting..
i mean...
last yr..
break camp aku melalak..
sampai balek rumah aku melalak...
debrief...
aku nangis jugak...
coz time tu aku da btol2 tk bleh angkat...
i cried openly...
aper tk nyer...
seeing Epin tear like that too...
bkn slalu kau tgk mamat tu nangis...
tros pipe bukak arh...
aper lagik...
n yar...
i was afraid...
how cn i survive without those people...
i am still afraid now...
people are gonna leave me...
us...
MLS...
again...
this yr..
aku nyer reception slow sikit...
it took me quite a while to realise it is the last event for sum...
haish...
i hate changes...
but yar...
like i kept telling myself...
"Changes are inevitable. It is sure to happen."
so here i am..
still convincing myself...
its gonna be better...
i noe it will...
n once again..
sorie to everyone...
maner tau Su ader disappoint u guys ker...
i noe i haven done much...
but just to let u guys noe..
aku syg korg sumer...
like how aku syg family aku...
korg family aku...
MLS is one of my biggest priority now...
it has done so much to me...
u guys, being part of it, made a HUGE impact on me...
THANK YOU...
n...
im sorie...
for everyting...
n for this super looooong post...
heh...
signing out....
Su.Hai.Lah
